Helen's Recovery

 8/3/21 I am so unbelievably tired of this. I wake up everyday hating who I am and despising what I do to me and my family. I have so much hatred for my eating disorder it is insane. I feel like I am going to end up killing myself because I just can't handle it anymore. I am struggling so bad. Recovery is so hard but I know it is going to be worth it. If anyone is reading this, I hope you know you are worth recovery and always will be. 

 Where to Contact Me If you would like to have a one on one conversation or advice for recovery, please contact me at helenrosechapman@gmail.com .

 Recovery is not linear. 

 Good Morning This morning was rough. I was fighting with my mom about food again. I have a pool party today but I have scars all over my body. I feel disgusting. There is gonna be cookie cake and pizza and it is going to drive me insane. I have to be in a bathing suit anyways. My mom is obsessed with talking about me behind my back with other moms. Especially when I'm struggling. Its not like the other mom doesn't talk about their daughters issues to my mom either. I know way too much personal information of people that have mental issues, that I have never even met. School starts on August 10, I am in charge of all of my meals if I can keep my weight from dropping. Wish me luck.  -H